“Hello baby” I say to the bright eyes in my lap. She returns with a beautiful baby smile and tiny giggle. Though her clothes are filthy and her hands are sticky, I can't help but kiss her smooth baby cheeks.
The pre-teen sitting to my right looks
around her little two room home that is currently crammed with people, a handful of them, American. Maybe she’s thinking: “What is America like? It must be very
different from Romania. Why did they come here?” She puts her arm around my back and scoots
just a bit closer.
Her little brother starts tugging on
hands, skirts and legs all around the room, desiring attention. When that
doesn’t work he tries to strum the guitar we just used to muddle through a song. This week we are minus the normal song leaders. He’s still not getting the attention he seeks.
In the one other room in the home a fire burns
much too strong for so much body heat in one tiny home. I cuddle the baby close
anyway. Her mom looks like she must be even younger than me. She sits on the
other end of the sofa holding her toddler. She is beautiful, but so young and
thin. Was she even 16 when she had her first child? Where is her husband? Is he
kind? Does he find work so that their small family can eat? What are this young
mother’s greatest fears?
I smile at the matriarch of this home.
She smiles back a gap-toothed smile as she bounces a baby on one hip. She
stands beside her pregnant, teenage daughter. A precious babe growing beneath
a red satin shirt that may pop a button if the baby kicks in just the right
spot. That babe is warm and well now, but will that be true in life outside the
womb? What if there are complications? Will this mother and babe get the help
they need? I hope, but can’t be sure. I’ve seen prejudice inside the hospitals;
there is no guarantee. Our little church service is over and I steal a few more
kisses before handing off the little one to her young mother.
The door bangs open and shut as little
feet pitter in and patter out. The wellsprings of youth and energy know no bounds.
As soon as we exit the house, little hands reach up begging to be held, swung,
chased and laughed at. Braids flop and fly, too-big-pants sag creating tiny plumber's cracks, smiles change to
smirks and puddles are jumped in as we make our way down the dirt path between
their homes.
One little girl begins to cry. Another
child grabbed her arm where she has recently been burnt. She painfully makes
her way home. Before long she runs up to me again. We play a little more. Someone
asks if I’ve seen the burn on her arm. I have not. I ask her if I can look at
her arm. She lets me check. No bandage covers an awful burn inflicted by a hot
stove. I can’t imagine how she endured the pain. I ask if she’s putting on the
medicine they had brought earlier in the week, she just nods her head and
changes the subject. I worry about infection. I hate to leave her. Who am I to
walk away from her in such need. But, here I am still heading to the car.
I’m getting pounded with hugs and farewells.
I dash to the car door that is opened only at my arrival and must be quickly
locked as we can’t take in stow-away passengers. We drive away and I breathe
deep. I feel like I am leaving joy and peace behind. Such qualities found in a place where the world
says they should not exist. My emotions are running rampant. I tell myself I’ll
go back, that doesn’t soothe the ache.